月

星期六是我和李祖喬十三個月紀念
這個歷史時刻比一週年對我來說是更有意義
因為它衝破了我最長的拍拖時間
為了這樣, joq送了我董生的自然史三部曲第一部
《天工開物．栩栩如真》
仲話如果我地一年後，兩年後還在一起的話
他會送我第二部和第三部
幾好呵？

兩年後．．
24個月後會發生什麼事？
總覺得越近22的時間, 會發生的事比任何時候還要多
25歲或30歲後的日子像濃縮了一樣
可能是女仔吧, 30歲以後好像被壓縮成一個整體
那個整體叫 non-青春
彷彿30歲以後什麼也不能發生
沉日星期日明報有journal師姐徐岱靈 訪問
好一個浪遊25歲的女孩, 也說
「要趁後生出去睇，因為人到30歲，就會開始想安定，尤其是女仔」
所以，這三年「形住」或是「妄想」有很多事情會發生
對著第二部和第三部等緊我的兩年, 我還是沒法去確定一些事情
又例如30歲前的愛情都不會是愛一個人的事情

說完這樣沒有道德的話
還是要多謝joq和他那份不離不棄
我這甚少打愛情的事在這兒的人, 也分半個entry給你道謝

ps 0155 last night, I was waken up by my pee.
When I passed by the living room, I saw the most amazing moon I have ever seen. It was hung right up there. It was like shining for me, and just for me. Other things were lit up but I could only feel the silver moonlight. There are some things in life, which everybody can experience, but they stand as if they are only meant for you. Like the half moon last night, they are the most beautiful. And they make you feel like the luckiest person on earth.

pps Why the hell am I using English? Perhaps because the half moon reminded me the moon in Vancouver. In Vancouver, the moon comes in a very big size, like those in satelite photographs. Maybe it is the same in Hong Kong but god-damned buidlings block our view. The thing with moon is, you can look right at it without having your eyes hurt, and you can touch the tides which it affects.....